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Um, HOLY SHIT.

...First Ian leaves the Cab (:(), now Ryan and Jon are leaving?!

...Ryan fucking FOUNDED PATD. How the FUCK can he leave?!

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I don't know what the fuck I'm doing anymore. Honestly.

- School's over, and I'm still unsure as to whether or not I have to repeat the year.
- I can't go an hour without feeling like my head is about to roll off my shoulders.
- I just... I don't talk to anybody anymore. Like the previous bullshit conversations I have when I see really old friends again are cycling back through my mouth cause my brain's off.
- I either can't sleep or I oversleep so I'm always tired.
- Fuck, I honestly fell in love. Truly. And she is fucking amazing... And I don't deserve her. So I'm just gonna do what I always do and let her go like I let everyone else I've liked go on with their lives and if I'm lucky, maybe one day I'll find someone as amazing as she is and maybe I'll feel like I'm good enough for them. Maybe not.
- And my mental health is through the floor. :/

*headdesk* The nightmares don't help much either...